Normal ba Ito?

Nakaiinis naman. Parang palagi na lang akong malungkot. Normal ba ito?

Para akong heartbroken na hindi ko malaman. Wala naman akong karelasyon. Wala namang nakipag break sa akin. So bakit parang meron at ang lungkot ko? 

Ewan. Hindi ko rin alam bakit. Frustrated ba ako dahil sa trabaho na hindi ko malaman bakit parang laging hindi ako tumatama? O sa ibang bagay kasi nagye-yearn ako for someone I shouldn't be yearning for?

Sana kulang lang ako sa tulog. 

Nung high school ako, sa una kong heart break, nasa isip ko noon, hindi ako excited gumising to face the new day kasi paggising ko, malungkot lang din ako. And I am feeling that same way now. I think.

How did I move on from that? How did I move on from all those days which were like that?

Why can't I do it now?

I should be wiser now that I am older.

I shouldn't even be thinking about this or a specific person. It's so farfetched. Why did my brain even start to plague itself with thoughts of this someone? I miss feeling and knowing I am good at what I do.

Thea, breathe.

It'll be fine. You'll be fine.

Maybe not for now.

But it will come.

And what if it doesn't?

Perhaps these are just products of my imagination?