"It's Just a Game." Is it?

We lost sa game. I think because of my choices. So I'm crying because of a fucking game. LOL. I wish I can take comfort from It's okaaaay. It's okay.

I could stop blaming myself, I know. I can let it slide and say it's not a big thing and it wasn't a mistake. I can make excuses such as, I mentioned a lot of times last night, we can revoke my choices before a specific time. But it was decided to stick with it. Then I mentioned again we can revoke it. But it didn't happen. I overslept. It wasn't revoked. When I woke up and showed that they were right that the opponent will get better allies, I was told, Andyan na 'yan.

But I just can't. Why don't I allow myself to make mistakes? Why am I always hard on myself on every red mark I see?

And yeah, you don't have to say it. I'm lying low on the game. Ever since I shifted, I'm shitting bricks. Hindi ko alam kung kaya ba ako ganito kasi talo kami o kasi ayokong may specific person na madisappoint.

"Just trying to impress someone," I once said in jest.