Why I Always Sleep During Pull-outs

Every time we have pull-outs or trips that the travel is really long, people will notice as they open the car's door that I am already sleeping. Sometimes, if I am lucky, my body is stretched on the seats as if I am really on a bed.

Few will kid around or tell the other, "That's just how Thea is. She just really sleeps along the way." I realized it was not just because I did not have enough sleep as for some instances, I have to wake up around 12 midnight or so to arrive at 2 A.M. for the pull-out and I still had to go to work before that. It was also probably because of my upbringing or how I was as a child when we travel. It may also be the reason why I don't really do much of traveling aside from work.

Unlike most people who enjoy the view by the window, I enjoy the window seat not because I want to see the view. But because it relieves me from what I feel. Back when I was younger, when we have a two-day bus ride going to Samar, Granny and Auntie will always make it a point that my seat will be by the window. No questions asked. My cousins, I guess, already know why, too.

There was no day my Tatay and Granny will leave the house with me without candies and plastic -- because I always get dizzy and I vomit. Sometimes, prior to leaving, I will drink my Bonamine. Tatay will sometimes ask if I can handle without drinking. I will try but I know, he has a tab in his pocket.

I remember one time, we went to Cubao, riding an FX, and I still vomited despite a short distance trip from Marikina to Cubao. Tatay and Granny were ready. This is also the reason why I like non-air conditioned vehicles better. Whenever we go to Samar, we take the ordinary bus. The AC makes me dizzy. Probably, this is also the reason why I can't stand being in a cold room that long. My body is not used to it.

During my first plane ride, I was so happy I did not vomit despite being in the middle seat and not drinking medicines. But my tongue was playing with my candy and I think I have a plastic in my pocket or it was with Nanay.

Realizing these made me think that maybe, what we really are now is because of who we are before or how we are when we were younger and it is up to us to change them. However, I know that this is one of the things I cannot change. Maybe, not right away. That I am still that kid who really gets dizzy and would rather just sleep during the trip instead of having some sight-seeing. Though I sometimes envy people who can look at the window inside a moving vehicle, I know some also may envy me as I can sleep right away.

Perhaps, this is also why I don't like riding some rides in an amusement park, especially when they make you dizzy and nauseous. A part of me doesn't like the thrill because I don't want to stress myself out and worry while I am in the air, asking myself, Why did I even do this? I could just be sitting or standing somewhere looking! Is the belt or lock safe? What if I suddenly fall from this height?!

These were my questions when we went to Enchanted Kingdom and I tried the fucking Anchor's Away and I had no friends beside me because of the seats' availability. HAHAHAHA! My eyes were shut all through out the ride. I was having a hard time breathing. I do not usually shout because I find it fake -- I cannot shout, really, but when I was in the Anchor's Away, I had to force it to relieve my lungs.

At the end of the ride, my eyes were teary because it was the time I opened them after two minutes of being closed. Closed in a way that it was so tight! (WHAT?!)

Anyway, I enjoyed Rialto in EK. Also the Carousel and the Roller Skater. HAHAHA! I liked the Ferris Wheel, too! But my gang took the extreme rides, riding one ride to another. Here are some photos: